we’re in….

Sooo…moving was quite the experience…. but we made it.  We’re in.   One street over.  It might has well have been across the continent.  All of our stuff is settling in under this one roof that we now call home.  We are lighter after the big purge and it is liberating…. I think.  The whole process has been in equal parts good …. hard…. frustrating…. exhausting…. humbling…. exciting… and patience building.  I’ve slowly come to the realization that I am really glad that we did it, but I sincerely hope we never have to do it again…..like EVER!!  We’ve had a steady stream of people in to repair, re-do, un-do, build and re-build.  They are still coming.   I use to think I wanted a fixer-upper.  I realize now that I really don’t.  I couldn’t live through the phase of renovation. We’ve had the predictable and the unpredictable, even a foot through the ceiling of our bedroom creating another unexpected project.  Yes, that was fun.

Perhaps it is because I am an introvert.  Perhaps it is because I am a perfectionist.  Perhaps it is because I have a little Jedi in me and sense a disturbance in the force.  Whatever the reason, having these strangers in and around my house makes me anxious and unsettled.  They are nice nice people and very hard workers.  Yet, I pace.  I worry.  I can’t relax.  I should be using this time to accomplish something or anything,  yet I find myself just pacing some more.  My personal space bubble enlarges to epic proportions.  I feel imprisoned here in a suffocating kind of way.  So I am writing about it in an effort to let it go.

These are all first world problems and I understand that.   I mentally back up and try to punt those negative yucky feelings and grasp for thanksgiving and gratitude  And suddenly you know…it’s time to start something new and trust the magic of beginnings.  I am thankful that I have a place that needs this kind of attention.  I am thankful for our resources and provision to do it.  I am thankful for yet another beginning.  I constantly remind myself of the fruits of the spirit.   Please come Love… Joy… Peace… Patience… Goodness…. Kindness…. Faithfulness …. Gentleness ….. and Self-control.  I invite you in with open arms to inhabit my soul and this home.